We've walked together for so long
over paths often dark,
losing ourselves in emotion thick
clinging on, yet longing to part.
Together we've faced great fear
great heartache and lost dreams,
inner torment
and muffled screams,
placed our desires behind a wall
broken free
only to fall...
We've let each other down
we've let each other go
but we've always returned
to what only we know
...but I don't need you anymore...
I've struggled for so long
trying to make you right,
you resisted my lead
and at times broken me inside.
I admit I've never been overly fond of you
your selfishness at times drives me insane
but I've worked so hard to improve you
in so many ways
...but I don't want you anymore...
I know you're hurting
I feel it deep inside,
I am aware of your sorrow
and the tears you've cried;
but I've seen enough to know
no matter what emotion leads you at this present time,
Heart, my life is not about you
You are no longer mine!
Jesus bought you for a price
He paid for you with His blood,
He rescued you from sin and death
gave you healing and filled you with love.
He gave you wings and set you free
He covered you with grace,
but, Heart - My Heart - it's not for you alone
that His sacrifice was made.
Father, hear my cry
Father, hear my plea,
as I come to you in tears
and on bended knee.
Once You said
oh so so clearly
"You have looked upon your sinfulness,
now it's time to look upon your beauty"
but, Father, when I look upon my heart
all I see is shades of vanity.
I worry for myself
my heart yearns for many things,
but I come to You, God, in repentance
asking for the love Your Son brings.
Let not my heart seek its needs
let it be used to love beyond myself,
take it
break it
- if that's what I need
or it will be good for nothing else..."
Heart, my heart, I know you've tried
to deny self in order to be whole,
but I feel there's only one thing left to do
and that is let you go.
Heart, you are no longer mine
I set you in God's tender hands,
so seek me no more, no matter what
I am no longer yours to command.
Eyes, rise up from my heart
set your sights on the needs of others,
for my heart is ours no more
it is our Lord's, and our Father's.
From here on in, Eyes, look straight ahead
look not at me,
and then perhaps my heart will be made whole
and I'll be truly free...
~ Donna Keevers Driver ~
2011